Lovechild

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When things feel like there is no hope try to remember! Remember the good times we have had. Remember all the rough times we helped each other through. Remember everything that makes us laugh! Remember that if we fight and try we can make it and there is no question about that!

The longer I have to wait the more I have to think and suffer. The longer I have to wait the more confused I get. At 03:30 this morning I started to question if love was even part of the equation any more or if you have replaced that with hate and vengence. Are you doing this to make me realize how badly I messed up and to punish me? IF so then fine but time is of the essence my dear. If you are doing this to hurt me and because you now hate me let me now because I can't take it anymore. And if love stil is part of the equation for you then heal me! Because if you know that you love me and that I love you, you will know what happens next. So please my love. Do what ever it is you are planning to do! I can't take it anymore!

... you think it's easy in the beginning and fun and games. You think that if something goes wrong then oh well we can fix it. But what if you are in the position where you can't do anything? What if you are the cause of all the pain? What if you beg and plead for hours? Wht if you cry until you faint and wake up and cry again but there is NOTHING you can do?

You will always be my boo!

You are the reason I want to wake up in the morning, you are the reason I want to smile, you are the reason I choose to care. I see nobody else but you because I love ONLY you!

"I'm overboard, and I need your love,
pull me up, I can't swim on my own,
it's too much, feels like I'm drowning without your love,
so throw yourself out to me, my life-saver,
life saver oh life saver...."

Hhahah this soong is just tooooo good! My dear freind Camme showed me this! Usher for life baby! He is soooo H.O.T!!

(secret message to Camme- Imagine if we would have listened to this at the hotel? GAAAH! :p)

Short update: The thing I have to look forward to this week will be one of my friends graduation party that I will be attending with Lotta! It's really time for the pair of us to reconnect! :D

Tomorrow: a short visit to Camme after school! :D

Love of love! Peace out A-town!

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... when spring comes dancing around the corner the air becomes easier to take in. I don't know about you but for me it's like I've been suffocating during the entire winter. Feeling like there is no point. I shouldn't be in Sweden if this is how I feel but darn it I sure do love Sweden most of the time, for some very strange reason. When the sun comes out and choses to stay out longer and long for every day that passes the smile on my face, along with a lot of other people, gorws drastically. I see hope now. I cry tears of joy because I see a purpose. I see fun and games that await me and especially now after graduation. During the spring/summer I live, I love, I smile, I breath, I hope and I feel. It's like with all the snow and ice my feeling freeze as well. I scare myself during the winter. When I become ice cold I knwo that it's time for me to leave this country but I can't always do that.

Apart from my reborn self not a lot has happend. I finally finnished my biology study course (which rocked btw but was MAD boring) and now I actually know biology! YEY! :D I am now busy with my Business and Management study course which aso rocks. My tutor is only a year older than me but waaaay better than any of the teachers I've had.

Something new and fun on the other hand is that the 17th of April I am off to an audition for a new Swedish movie. We'll see how that goes! :D

At the moment I an at Anton's place while he is at soccer practise. So I'm just chillin in hiw cozy livingroom watching 2 1/2 men!

Check in with ya'll later!

Live, love, laugh! -Raffy Taffy

This is by far one of his best live performances EVER!! One seriously falls in love with his voice after this! wow... :')

Soooo *sigh*!!! Just got home from dinner straight after my biology revision course day 1. It was...EXHAUSTING!! We managed to cover 4 our of 6 topics! Now I have 2 hours worth of homework waiting for me so I gotta go!

Spent the weekend with my very liscious Greek family and my wonderful boyfriend Anton. We had a loooot of fun.