I cry everytime!!
I still can't stop crying! I listened to this song on my phone when I was on my home and when Jennifer Hudson starts singing the second time the tears start rolling!
HAHA LMAO!!
BEST CHOREOGRAPHY EVER!!! SAAAJK!! :P
Late night studying!
Still stuck in school studying! just had dinner with Filmon, Tomas, Abe and Anthony. Man I'm gonna miss these times when they're over but all I can see right now is how nice it's gonna be to finnish this hell hole of an education! :p
Check in with ya'll later if I have time!
Peace out! <3
Check in with ya'll later if I have time!
Peace out! <3
Todays Swagger Babe!
Rihanna
Motivation: For being so insanely hot and being the queen of modern rap and rnb. She's rockin Kanye AND Jay-z in her song "Runt his town" while rockin Manolo's at the same time baby!!! SWAGGER!!!
The song of the day!!!! :D
Rihanna is in tha hizouse!! :P
Todays Swagger Babe!
India Arie
Motvation: For being one of the people who has saved my mental stability millions of times. With out her lyrics things would be a bit more complicated!
Destiny...
I've been wanting to write about destiny because it is something that is in the back of all of my thoughts at all time. So here is my attempt of putting my thoughts down on this here blog.
According to the websters dictionary destiny is defined as : "a predetermined course of events often held to be an irresistible power or agency". I'm not saying this definition is wrong but because of my lack of a better word for what I mean I'm gonna have to work around this.
When I say destiny I mean the feeling of destiny. Not all people believe in destiny. I believe in that everything happens for a reason but I also strongely belive that everyting is what we make it to be. So if something goes wrong it is your fault and if something goes right it's because of you. Get it?
Being able to comprehend my version of destiny, life becomes a bit trickier seeing as one just has to accept the fact that everytime something bad happens it was because of one self and that things could have been different. That's why it's important to notice the silverlinings that come after the clouds. Those were all because of the actions you chose to do before.
Have you ever felt like you were meant for something greater than what you are today. I am a mediocre girl living a mediocre life in very mediocre Sweden, according to many others that is. But from my perspective I live a very rich life. Not money wise (not complaining or anything) but "life" wise. I have a family that I love with all my heart and that loves me back more than I can understand. I have the potential to achieve anything I want (just like everybody else) AND I have the will and the stubbornness of an ass when it comes to getting where I want to get. But having to bend over for some things in life that are just so unfair because I'm to scared to go out there and take what I want leaves me questioning myself and my abilities. Am I really meant for greater things here in life? Will I ever reach my goal? Why is this all so hard?
You see, I've always been one of these annoyingly organized people who write schedules for when to eat and when to sleep and stuff ,but I never seem to follow them through. But having a plan that is motivating and illustrative, such as my dream board, has set everything into a whole different perspective.
The point of this lost trail of thought is that we are all meant to be right here and right now but it is all up to US to decide where we WANT to be and make it happen. Remember, YOU are YOUR best friend, YOU are the ONLY PERSON that can get you there, without YOU your stuck.
Someone once told me that if you visualize something clear enough and want it bad enough those exact things will happen to you and I BET YOU that if you guys think back on all the hardshipes you've been through, and all the times you've layed in bed thinking about how cool life would be if things were this way or that way, that somewhere somehow you will find that a lot of those things you visualized as a kid HAVE actually happend. It's insane. My relationship to my boyfriend today is living proof along with my choice of attending to the IB program and so on. It's weird but when you think about it with an open mind you will see it and you will feel more confident. You will belive in yourself more and most of all you will always be that little kid that day dreams about things that seem to be waaay out of this world, but the coolest thing is that now you have the power of knowledge. Knowledge about how some things work here in life. Knowledge of how YOU are the one who gave yourself all the moments when you cry until you laugh and the moments where you laugh until you cry and you will become brave. You will see, jump, grab and live.
There's always gonna be another mountain. your always gonna wanna make it move. It's always gonna be an uphill battle. And sometimes your gonna have to lose. It ain't about how fast you get there, It ain't about whats waiting on the other side. No... it's tha climb.
Live. Laugh. Love. And don't you EVER forget about the people that help you along the road.
According to the websters dictionary destiny is defined as : "a predetermined course of events often held to be an irresistible power or agency". I'm not saying this definition is wrong but because of my lack of a better word for what I mean I'm gonna have to work around this.
When I say destiny I mean the feeling of destiny. Not all people believe in destiny. I believe in that everything happens for a reason but I also strongely belive that everyting is what we make it to be. So if something goes wrong it is your fault and if something goes right it's because of you. Get it?
Being able to comprehend my version of destiny, life becomes a bit trickier seeing as one just has to accept the fact that everytime something bad happens it was because of one self and that things could have been different. That's why it's important to notice the silverlinings that come after the clouds. Those were all because of the actions you chose to do before.
Have you ever felt like you were meant for something greater than what you are today. I am a mediocre girl living a mediocre life in very mediocre Sweden, according to many others that is. But from my perspective I live a very rich life. Not money wise (not complaining or anything) but "life" wise. I have a family that I love with all my heart and that loves me back more than I can understand. I have the potential to achieve anything I want (just like everybody else) AND I have the will and the stubbornness of an ass when it comes to getting where I want to get. But having to bend over for some things in life that are just so unfair because I'm to scared to go out there and take what I want leaves me questioning myself and my abilities. Am I really meant for greater things here in life? Will I ever reach my goal? Why is this all so hard?
You see, I've always been one of these annoyingly organized people who write schedules for when to eat and when to sleep and stuff ,but I never seem to follow them through. But having a plan that is motivating and illustrative, such as my dream board, has set everything into a whole different perspective.
The point of this lost trail of thought is that we are all meant to be right here and right now but it is all up to US to decide where we WANT to be and make it happen. Remember, YOU are YOUR best friend, YOU are the ONLY PERSON that can get you there, without YOU your stuck.
Someone once told me that if you visualize something clear enough and want it bad enough those exact things will happen to you and I BET YOU that if you guys think back on all the hardshipes you've been through, and all the times you've layed in bed thinking about how cool life would be if things were this way or that way, that somewhere somehow you will find that a lot of those things you visualized as a kid HAVE actually happend. It's insane. My relationship to my boyfriend today is living proof along with my choice of attending to the IB program and so on. It's weird but when you think about it with an open mind you will see it and you will feel more confident. You will belive in yourself more and most of all you will always be that little kid that day dreams about things that seem to be waaay out of this world, but the coolest thing is that now you have the power of knowledge. Knowledge about how some things work here in life. Knowledge of how YOU are the one who gave yourself all the moments when you cry until you laugh and the moments where you laugh until you cry and you will become brave. You will see, jump, grab and live.
There's always gonna be another mountain. your always gonna wanna make it move. It's always gonna be an uphill battle. And sometimes your gonna have to lose. It ain't about how fast you get there, It ain't about whats waiting on the other side. No... it's tha climb.
Live. Laugh. Love. And don't you EVER forget about the people that help you along the road.
Cell phone blog action!
Enjoying My resting time after an exhaustin beginners class in dancehall! Never done that before but i had fun! Now im watching her second class that is a level beyond me! :p when i get Home i have My final date with My extended essay and then im freee! Dont like the expression "im freeee" anymore! :/ hmmm wonder why? :p check in with ya'll later tonight hopefully finally with My Word on destiny! Loove!
Pride?
Okay. Check this out! As my friend Camme said when we saw this: "How can their parents be proud of them?". I mean come on on that stage there are three seven year olds dancing like strippers. This can only end up in a debate of a question on ethics! COME OOON!!!!!
Don't get me wrong! They can dance and they are tight as shit but COME OOON!!!
Think people THINK!!
Words...
Words. Each word has a life of there own. We all know this since what ever we say people can percieve them in different ways. The words twist in turn in any way they please making the truth almost invisible. So it's important to pick your words very carefully for they may hurt the people you love most.
I always tell people that they are preaching to the wrong person when they tell me that words are strange but then I fall into the trap myself.
Everything happens for a reason and I believe in that with all my heart and prayers are always answered but sometimes we get no for an answer. But when we get what we want nobody ever said that it would be easy and that the words that are chosen for the answer won't shake you up and hurt you. The most important thing of all is that no matter the answer we get we must be thankful for it and thank God.
I'll be back later with my talk on Destiny!
Live, Love and Laugh and never forget your family! Blood is thicker than water!<3
I always tell people that they are preaching to the wrong person when they tell me that words are strange but then I fall into the trap myself.
Everything happens for a reason and I believe in that with all my heart and prayers are always answered but sometimes we get no for an answer. But when we get what we want nobody ever said that it would be easy and that the words that are chosen for the answer won't shake you up and hurt you. The most important thing of all is that no matter the answer we get we must be thankful for it and thank God.
I'll be back later with my talk on Destiny!
Live, Love and Laugh and never forget your family! Blood is thicker than water!<3
Excuse the mess!
I've been trying to fix my blog for the past couple of hours and my patience has run out now so excuse the mess!
Graduation song? :p
Boys to Men - "The end of the road"
Todays Swagger Babe!
Anthony Alm
Motvation: I mean come on just look at him! His middle name is swagger! :p
Born to be a leader and no no not a follower!
Just came back to school from my shopping round with Filmon. I bought a avocado, a baguette, 4 redbulls (:p) and a chicken drum stick. Incase you guys were wondering! :p So now its time for me to make my beautiful sandwich and to watch the Lion King with Filmon.
Check in with ya'll later to write about an interesting subject. Namely: Destiny!
Love! :)
Check in with ya'll later to write about an interesting subject. Namely: Destiny!
Love! :)
Todays Brainiac!
My wonderful boyfriend Anton
Motivation: Because he is THE math geek! I seriously he speaks maths better than any other language and that is worth the title of being a brainiac for at least one day!
Todays Swagger Babe!
Alexa Chung
Motivation: For being herself and not being affraid of making fun of all the famous people that come into her studio!
She rocks!
My imperfect world...
The is NO place like home! I think I had idealized the thought of yesterdays cuise a liiiittle bit. During the entire cruise I kept saying "We're on a boat" and in my head I continued with adn e can't get off. Well I did have a great time due to my wonderful company but it was just funny. The whole scene was just hillarious. I had forgetten about how it was to be on a "Boat" :p! With all the drunken finnish people and the fat over dressed girl trying t get laid. It's fascinating how people actually go on cruisesto get laid with some flabby drunk dude that moans with a finnish twist! Don't get me wrong, my boyfriend is half finnish but he is faaaar from being a "Fairy finn" as I will call them from now on.
Dinner was super expensive and microwaved, o that sucked! My first drink, which just happend to be a Silja Line spethial called "Mangoism" was pure poisin seeing as i took one sip and I was gone. It was such a freaky feeling being completely sober in my thoughts but still having no control over my body. That wore off after a while and we switched bars to this place called "Starlight Palace" (ooooh yeah...I SAID IT!!!) and they just happaned to make the worlds best comsos. I know it's a real girly girl but damn there good! :) So I had one of thos while we were enjoying this surprisingly goods cover bands performance and then we were good to go. Off to bad to watch Mosters Inc. (AWESOME MOVIE)
When it was time to sleep we only saw one bed that was TOPS a meter wide. We made a bold attemt of sharing that bed but at 06:00 am Anton had to move to the couch. Since he couldn't find the covers and such he squeezed into my lime green softy pants and two of my shirts and tried to sleep. When I woke up, still feeling nautious from the food and the first drink, I looked at my poor baby and woke him up telling him to lift the back of the sofa up and voila! He find the covers. And on we went sleeping!
Woke up this morning really feeling like P Diddy (don't hate on my frequent use of the Kesha quote :P) and grabbed a slice of pizza aaand....ANOTHER COMSO to get back on track and it actually worked. We finnished watching Monsters Inc and then it was time to leave the boat. STOCKHOLM AT LAST! I had gotten such a bad case of sea legs( when you do't notice the waves and stuff so it feels completely still on the boat and it feels like its moving when one actually is on the ground and still) that when I got off the boat I almost through up. ALMOST!
So here I am 24 hours later ,from what I can only assume was the worst birthday present my dear boyfriend could ever imagine, feeling exhausted but still calm. It was awesome hanging out with my love alone during a longer period of time since my wonderful two weeks of parent free-ness at home and I can't say we didn't have fun because we sure did!
What amazes me about Anton is that he seems to be perfect. No matter what stupid things I say or do or how PMS-y I can be sometimes he always says the right things at the right time. He is perfect. There is no other word! I told him that it feels like I am keeping the worlds only perfect boy captive in my imperfect world and he responded with "and thats the only place he wants to be". I'll give you guys 10 kronors if you come up with a better answer!
The pictures from the cruise will be up by tomorrow but now its time for a midnight snack and then a date with my TOK essay! YEY! :P
Anton working my lime green pants and givin me a kiss on the cheek!
Love! <3
Dinner was super expensive and microwaved, o that sucked! My first drink, which just happend to be a Silja Line spethial called "Mangoism" was pure poisin seeing as i took one sip and I was gone. It was such a freaky feeling being completely sober in my thoughts but still having no control over my body. That wore off after a while and we switched bars to this place called "Starlight Palace" (ooooh yeah...I SAID IT!!!) and they just happaned to make the worlds best comsos. I know it's a real girly girl but damn there good! :) So I had one of thos while we were enjoying this surprisingly goods cover bands performance and then we were good to go. Off to bad to watch Mosters Inc. (AWESOME MOVIE)
When it was time to sleep we only saw one bed that was TOPS a meter wide. We made a bold attemt of sharing that bed but at 06:00 am Anton had to move to the couch. Since he couldn't find the covers and such he squeezed into my lime green softy pants and two of my shirts and tried to sleep. When I woke up, still feeling nautious from the food and the first drink, I looked at my poor baby and woke him up telling him to lift the back of the sofa up and voila! He find the covers. And on we went sleeping!
Woke up this morning really feeling like P Diddy (don't hate on my frequent use of the Kesha quote :P) and grabbed a slice of pizza aaand....ANOTHER COMSO to get back on track and it actually worked. We finnished watching Monsters Inc and then it was time to leave the boat. STOCKHOLM AT LAST! I had gotten such a bad case of sea legs( when you do't notice the waves and stuff so it feels completely still on the boat and it feels like its moving when one actually is on the ground and still) that when I got off the boat I almost through up. ALMOST!
So here I am 24 hours later ,from what I can only assume was the worst birthday present my dear boyfriend could ever imagine, feeling exhausted but still calm. It was awesome hanging out with my love alone during a longer period of time since my wonderful two weeks of parent free-ness at home and I can't say we didn't have fun because we sure did!
What amazes me about Anton is that he seems to be perfect. No matter what stupid things I say or do or how PMS-y I can be sometimes he always says the right things at the right time. He is perfect. There is no other word! I told him that it feels like I am keeping the worlds only perfect boy captive in my imperfect world and he responded with "and thats the only place he wants to be". I'll give you guys 10 kronors if you come up with a better answer!
The pictures from the cruise will be up by tomorrow but now its time for a midnight snack and then a date with my TOK essay! YEY! :P
Anton working my lime green pants and givin me a kiss on the cheek!
Love! <3
Todays Brainiac!
Motivation: For helping me get a picture program for my mac where I can make my own header for this blog!! :D
Thanks again!
Todays Swagger Babe!
Motivation: For being herself at all times no matter what people think or say!
Tick Tock on the clock...
Woke up once again feeling like P Diddy after having had like 20 different dreams about my cruise today. Both good and bad dreams. In some I missed the boat while my boyfriend didn't, in some my entire class came along without telling me, another my cousin did tha same thing but I know that there were some good dreams as well but I just don't remember them as well!
Well I'm really looking forward to this and the weather looks calmer so hopefully my mom is calmer as well. It's gonna be super nice and I bet we're gonna have e lot of fun.
The time is 12:24 so I better get my butt out of bed now and eat, pack, shower, get ready and go!
Don't know if I will have any internet onboard but if I do I'll check in with ya'll later!
xx ;)
Well I'm really looking forward to this and the weather looks calmer so hopefully my mom is calmer as well. It's gonna be super nice and I bet we're gonna have e lot of fun.
The time is 12:24 so I better get my butt out of bed now and eat, pack, shower, get ready and go!
Don't know if I will have any internet onboard but if I do I'll check in with ya'll later!
xx ;)
