Lovechild

I don't know what this is and I don't know why but all I know is that it was a while ago I felt this good and was this happy! On my way home I just couldn't stop smiling! People were looking at me like I was some kind of freak in my lime green pants but I liked it! I was like "Yeah I'm original! BRING IT!" haha.

Well people...I'm back and I'm here to stay! Today I declair myself a new start, a new me! I have a plan. A master plan! And I am gonna follow through!

This morning, during breakfast, I was (as usual) checking out some new clips of JBiebs on youtube while chatting with my dears friends Filmon, Camelia and Emma! I don't know why but they always make me feel better. I think it's because they apreciate me as much as I appreciate them and I can really feel it. It ain't a lot of people that have the ability to on your worst day make you feel like the king of the world! Well, ladies and gents...THEY DO!

I Love them and I wouldn't trade them for the world! They make me feel sane even when I know I'm insane! You know, for some reason I've felt like I have a lot of potential and that I can really go places, along wiht like the rest of the worlds populatio  buuut anywhoooo, for a while I've felt like that but still like there was no chance but somehow they along with the rest of my dear friends managaed to make me feel like I will go somewhere and that everything will be juuust fine. More than fine perfect!

All I wanted to do now was actually just spread the joy! If your feeling down and hopeless you should youtube India Arie and listen to here song "There's hope" and really listen tp the lyrics. There is nothing like it!















And remember: It doesn't cost a thing to smile and you don't have to pay to laugh so you better thank God for that!

Lot's of love to ya'll! PEACE!!!

Motivation: For being one of the most original and most loving people on the planet! <3

...noooot really! But i did get to rest! Its 12:26 and its a Wednesday! Did i forget to mention I am off the rest of the week?!?! :p WOOT WOOT!

Well I just realized that my boyfriend and I are scheduled for a cruise to Tallin on Sunday but I don't know if I feel like going to Tallin and I don't know if I want to switch to Riga! :S What's the difference? :p Eitherway I am going on a cruise! hahah!

Well yersterday I showed my boyfriend this blog and he found it quite good actually and I revealed it for another friend as well. People can think what ever they want about my weird thoughts but it's my blog so if it bothers people why read it!

So, I'm ar my boyfriends house on my own and about to go upstairs and make breakfast (interesting right) so I will get back to you later today with todays Swagger babe and so on!

P.S Listening to right now: Miley Cyrus- The Climb! Not a big fan of hers but that ong is really good! :')

xoxo





GOOD MORNING SUNSHINE!!! :p

ABE ASLAN!

Motivation: For being one of te most desciplined poeple in my class!

FILMON TEKLE!
Motivation: For being one of the most reliable friends I have and one of the funniest people alive but doesn't know about it!

Finally my Mock exams are over and now all I have to look forward to are my REAL exams YEY! PSYYYCH!

As usual I am still in my school and the time is 18:11 and the purpose of my being here is to study buuuut of course I am stuck on listening to music and surfing the net, mainly youtube! I can't stop watching the remake of We are the world and the sneak peek of the video shoot for "Baby"! I keep looking at the girls and i wonder what the HELL I am doing in this hell hole of a country when I could be there auditioning and at least taking my chances. GAH! Well my time will come, hopefully! :P

Still completely hooked on Justin Biebers new song Pick me and also the clip of his upcoming song with Sean Kingston that has no name yet. It sounds awesome!
Today was a completely worthless day. I came to school to fail a test and then walk around in school in my pyjamas the rest of the day doing absolutely nothing! Smart girl right? :D

Well, I really should get going even if chillin with Abe and Filmon isn't that bad at all! :D <3 But I would rather head home and cuddle up with my Wifey (my boyfriend Anton :P)!

I'll check in with ya'll later or tomorrow or something!

Peace out! ;D

(Mediocre day)

P.S Todays Swagger person is Filmon Tekle!

JENNIFER HUDSON! Her voice is beast! You should check her out and let her woow you!

So, I'm back form school now and the time is 18:16 in the cold cold and very dark Sweden! I was enjoying all the snow last week but that joy kind of died out when the temperature hit -20° C! Brrr!

Yesterday my dear dance pertner Emma Backman texted me asking me to sub for her on her 18:45 dance class at Bluehill and after a lot of thinking and panicing about how sick i felt and i how tired i was but also how fun it would be to finally dance again, I accepted! I pretty much already knew i would accept as soon as she texted me but hey I'm only human and all people try to kidd themselves at some point! ;P

The choreography was a success and teaching was a blast. The song i chose was a Justin Bieber song (shocking huh?) and its called "Pick Me"! Its not released yet but its all over youtube which I fing pretty odd and boring because its part of ht excitement waiting up all night for the new songs! :p Well anywhooo! It went great and I had a lot of fun and the group i taught was REALLY GOOD which made it all even more fun! I'll be filming that choreography along with another one to Justin Biebers song "Baby" (shocked you again right?) and plenty of other choreographies along with them. I'll also be posting them on youtube!

You see my friend Emma and I have this idea that if we start our own youtube channel maybe someday, somehow and somewhere Justin will discover it and be like "Damn these girls can dance maybe we should contact them for a video or something?". Sounds waaay far fetched I know but even if there is only a one in a million chance I am willing to take it! So when this channel is up and running I will post the adress here and hopefully people will watch!

Well time for me to study for my Business and Management test tomorrow at 08:50! yey! PSYCH! :p

Love ya'll! Peace out A-town and have fun with life!

P.S. Jennifer Hudson has a KILLER voice!

I had one dream, one passion, one drive and somebody managed to take that away from me. I don’t know how and I don’t know who but I know that I miss it. A lot! I look at Justin Bieber and all people see is a shallow crush but what people don’t get is that he inspires me more than anyone has ever been able to before. When I use the word inspiration and the name Justin Bieber in the same sentence people laugh because they think I am some crazy stalker. They don’t get it. He is living my dream and sure I am jealous but I am sooo happy and inspired but when I look at the life I live today I see no hope. I see no chance. I don’t know what to do.

Think about it. He is a 15-year-old kid who in less than a year took the world by storm. The only word that can come close to describing what I think of that is WOW!  I admire him and I admire his mom almost more. She is helping him live the exact dream I barely dare dream of. She helps him live a life where one day a week he gets to be a kid, he gets to be him. Not the super celeb that girls throw their panties at on stage but the person none of us knows even though we like to think we do.

Now just imagine yourself in his position. Would you be able to stay as grounded and as humble as him? I highly doubt that but hey he did it so everything is possible right? What he does and at his age is admirable and nothing else.

So I go on living my mediocre life in cold, cold Sweden barely breathing due to the emptiness dreaming about something that probably will never happen. I keep trying to tell myself that what I want is to study hard (which I do and I like it as well) and that in the future I want to become a regular hard working successful business woman.

I know that I am very negative right now and that most of you are just thinking why don’t you just go out and do something about it? Well you see I have no supportive family and I am Greek meaning that if I choose “that life” I choose it over them. There goes the family. But it gets better. I am an 18-year-old girl with and American citizenship and I have a talent within dancing. So why not just fly to the US and make it happen right? Well try doing that with sickle thalasemia. I was born with a blood disease which makes it harder, not impossible, but much harder for my body to train as much and as hard as “normal and healthy” people can. Don’t get me wrong, I live a normal life and all but I get sick a lot.

Wow this is really turning out to a sad sob story but all I wanted to say was that Justin Bieber inspires me and I admire him and I would want nothing more than for him to keep doing what he is doing no matter if he notices me or not. I’m a fan but not a fan that purposes or asks him questions like “why are you so hot” and I don’t “love” him but I admire him with all my heart.

 

If you see this, Good luck to you! HAVE FUN! Life’s too short!

 

- Raffaella J