Lovechild

Time is all I want and all I need! Time to mend all my wounds, wime to finnish the unfinnished, time to play around and then settle down! It's just all soooo confusing, not knowing what you want.

Many say that the grass is always greener on the other side but I believe that it looks greener but it never is.

It feels like i'm turning into one of these people who can't take care of themselves. One of these people who always need a baby sitter. It feels horrible. I have so many dreams, so many opportunities yet so little time!

I just feel like giving up. Life will never be satisfying. Even the moments you claim to be satisfied there will always be something else you would have preferred.

I need time and I need to get away from everything and everyone. And I mean EVERYONE! Even the people I love the most. I need to think, cry, panic and relax but most of all I need to come to a conclusion of who I am and what I want to do with my life. I need to figure out the next sep cuz now I'm jsut stuck in a cross roads. In this cross roads all I see is clubs and shopping and other places to spend a loooot of money at and I am so confused that I can't resist the temptation.

And as for YOU....I need you to be an ass to me so that I can become motivated and determined cuz now your just messing me up...again!

-R