Ice queen or suicide attempt?
Hung out with Camme all day yesterday. She spent the night at my place from Saturday to Sunday and I at her place from Sunday to today (Monday). So yesterday I tagged along to Bluehill to just watch her classes but I got so pumped by the music and the energy so I joined. The vibe in general was great and the fact that Amir came and was bubbly helped! :)
After this Camme, one of her sweet friends Linda aka. Lindeeerrrrr, and me went to McDonalds and then off to Cammes place. Of course I realized that I was hungry just inte time for like midnight so off we went back to McDonalds just Camme and I. We ended up having a very deep conversation as usual but this one was scary. A major red bell rang inside of me when I started to blurt out my feelings but for some reason it feels safe to do that with Camme. The entire conversation was about people having left me for reasons I still can't figure out.
So why the title Ice queen or suicide attempt? Well, when people left and hurt me it took me a long time to bounce back but I finally did. The reason for it having taken so long is because I thought that the solution was to become an Ice queen and let noone in what so ever but I just ended up lonely and scared of everything so what I did was I let everything go and jumped off that clip of lonelyness and fear. Where di I end up? In my wonnderful Antons arms. It wasn't all laughs and gags with him either but as soon as I leaped I saw results that have changed my life.
My point is that no matter who hurts you, no matter how many people you have to cross off your friend list you have to get up again and give even more than you did. Because if you don't give you won't get. If you don't let go you get stuck. If you don't realize that te hardest part is to stand up again and smile you will become bitter. So there you go. It's your life so it's your choice. Take your pick! ;)
Only Love! :') <3
After this Camme, one of her sweet friends Linda aka. Lindeeerrrrr, and me went to McDonalds and then off to Cammes place. Of course I realized that I was hungry just inte time for like midnight so off we went back to McDonalds just Camme and I. We ended up having a very deep conversation as usual but this one was scary. A major red bell rang inside of me when I started to blurt out my feelings but for some reason it feels safe to do that with Camme. The entire conversation was about people having left me for reasons I still can't figure out.
So why the title Ice queen or suicide attempt? Well, when people left and hurt me it took me a long time to bounce back but I finally did. The reason for it having taken so long is because I thought that the solution was to become an Ice queen and let noone in what so ever but I just ended up lonely and scared of everything so what I did was I let everything go and jumped off that clip of lonelyness and fear. Where di I end up? In my wonnderful Antons arms. It wasn't all laughs and gags with him either but as soon as I leaped I saw results that have changed my life.
My point is that no matter who hurts you, no matter how many people you have to cross off your friend list you have to get up again and give even more than you did. Because if you don't give you won't get. If you don't let go you get stuck. If you don't realize that te hardest part is to stand up again and smile you will become bitter. So there you go. It's your life so it's your choice. Take your pick! ;)
Only Love! :') <3
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Postat av: C*
aaaaw :') u make me wanna cry tears of happiness Raffaloonie! Never doubt talking to me, anything u say stays with me...the day i let u down, i let myself down.
Love u baby<3
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