I don't know what happens to me...
So I had a doctors appointment this morning and a bloodtest was in order. That went......HORRIBLY!
For some reason the nurses who have been doing this for the past 25 years have no idea of how to find a vein. No just kiddin! :p The problem was that I was nervous because of a talk that we had before about my disease and the risks of it and I got waaaay to worked up so my vein decided to run away and hide. So two pokes later I freaked out and I requested the option of taking the test tomorrow which was granted.
I really have no clue of what happens to me everytime I have to take bloodtest but I panic and I freak big time. I just become a nervous reck and I start crying and shit. And nooo not in a loud kind of way but I have troubles breathing because I try to calm myself down while the tears fog up my sight because of the unstopable waterworks.
So basically what I found out today was that there is a risk for me to just suddenly get a stroke, that I have the "option" of getting a blood transfusion but this means that I will become dependent of it and since I can't take a needle for 30 seconds there is no chance on earth that I will be able to take one for several hours like once a month! I also found out that the medications I'm on are in swedish called "cellgift behandling" which is the same type of medicine one usually gives cancer sick people but mine are a much milder version.
So after a lot of freaked out crying on my way to school I calmed down, went to class and now I'm in a class meeting starving for food and guess what.....we are chosing our menu for our graduation dinner which is just a darn tease right now! :p
Now I'm in class as I said but after this class I am off to my friend Camme's place to chill and then after that my second rehersal for the Last Bounce. Oh yeah that was something I never wrote about. So I got a phone call yesterday where the voice from the other side asked me if I wanted to participate in their major flashmob! The idea is really cool and it could be really good but for some strange reason I feelt REALLY uncomfortable. Well anywho! Cammeloonie knows what I mean!
Much love yall! PAYCE!!!
<3
For some reason the nurses who have been doing this for the past 25 years have no idea of how to find a vein. No just kiddin! :p The problem was that I was nervous because of a talk that we had before about my disease and the risks of it and I got waaaay to worked up so my vein decided to run away and hide. So two pokes later I freaked out and I requested the option of taking the test tomorrow which was granted.
I really have no clue of what happens to me everytime I have to take bloodtest but I panic and I freak big time. I just become a nervous reck and I start crying and shit. And nooo not in a loud kind of way but I have troubles breathing because I try to calm myself down while the tears fog up my sight because of the unstopable waterworks.
So basically what I found out today was that there is a risk for me to just suddenly get a stroke, that I have the "option" of getting a blood transfusion but this means that I will become dependent of it and since I can't take a needle for 30 seconds there is no chance on earth that I will be able to take one for several hours like once a month! I also found out that the medications I'm on are in swedish called "cellgift behandling" which is the same type of medicine one usually gives cancer sick people but mine are a much milder version.
So after a lot of freaked out crying on my way to school I calmed down, went to class and now I'm in a class meeting starving for food and guess what.....we are chosing our menu for our graduation dinner which is just a darn tease right now! :p
Now I'm in class as I said but after this class I am off to my friend Camme's place to chill and then after that my second rehersal for the Last Bounce. Oh yeah that was something I never wrote about. So I got a phone call yesterday where the voice from the other side asked me if I wanted to participate in their major flashmob! The idea is really cool and it could be really good but for some strange reason I feelt REALLY uncomfortable. Well anywho! Cammeloonie knows what I mean!
Much love yall! PAYCE!!!
<3
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Postat av: C*
No no no! what is this im hearing :'( are u serious?!?! F***ing piece of shit medical shit assness...okey mi gwan mad! Don't wanna see mi raffaloonie hurt! why didn't u tell me this 2day?!
And yeah baby...i know EXACTLY what u mean!!
<3
Postat av: Raffaloonie
I thought you knew about my disease° :/ Well not many people know exactly how much needles freak me out! I HATE THEM! And guess what....I am off to get the real bloodtest dnoe on friday because they never succeeded yesterday! :(
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